mollydotw: Wedding Dress Shopping & Overcoming Fears

I can't actually believe I have just written that title.

To be honest I cant believe I've just been and tried on wedding dresses.

WEDDING DRESSES.

W E D D I N G D R E S S E S

sorry but I'm a scared, nervous, excited, panicky mess all at the same time.

I arranged a slot to go into a little bridal store in my town that I had heard amazing things about and was not disappointed in the slightest. The shop was so small, cosy and smelt delicious, and the thing I loved the most was that the front door was locked the entire time so it was just us in the room and not just any old so and so walking through the door.

At the time of booking it I was excited and looking forward to it and that was about it, but this morning when the day arrived, my nerves went into overdrive. I showered even though my hair didn't need washing, shaved my legs to an inch of their life, moisturised and even wore matching underwear! (which was a struggle to find in its self)

Whilst doing so it suddenly hit me what I was most nervous about, the fact that I would be standing in just my underwear in front of a complete stranger whilst she helped me into wedding dresses that may not suit me, and make me look ridiculous. I am also very prone to getting spots on the top of my back. I use a special body wash in the shower to help get rid of them but every now and then they flare up and today - of all days!!!!!! they decided to come back to haunt me, and its a complex I am really self conscious about.

The more I dwelled on these issues the more and more closer I got to too cancelling the slot I had booked.

My mind was racing all day, and I got more and more self-conscious.

'What if I look fat in the dresses?'

'What if none of them look right and I just don't suit wedding dresses?'

'What if I get told that I look horrible?'

'What if I choose the wrong style?'

'What if she thinks my spotty back is disgusting?'

These 'what ifs' were never ending and they were taking up my day, I had a meeting in the morning at work and could barely concentrate on what was being said, I was just watching the clock counting down the minutes until I would be trying on the dresses.

My Mum and Sister came along with me and I did text my sister telling her I was nervous, and she told me not to worry.

Once getting into the little shop and picking out my favourite dresses and talking about the date, the style, the venue, my fiance etc etc etc the time came to actually try on the dresses.

I left the comfort of my Mum and Sister in the main shop and went into the dressing room with the lady to get into the dresses, and now looking back (even though it was literally an hour ago) I am really quite proud of myself!

I got undressed into my underwear and made my self look a lot more confident than I felt whilst she was helping me into the dresses, and it wasn't scary at all. I was just annoyed at myself for wasting an afternoon worrying about it.

And I can know honestly say that trying on wedding dresses is one of THE BEST experiences I have ever had. There were ones I didn't like and ones I loved, and one in particular that I have picked out as my favourite, which I will be going back to try again.

Today is a day I will remember forever but not just for trying on wedding dresses and the reality of getting married and being a wife literally hitting me really hard (in the nicest way)

but I also managed to over come self conciousness. Not that its gone completely in any shape or form, but I feel some part of me is a tiny bit more confident (especially when I was told I have a lovely figure for fitted dresses - oh slight little wedding dress hint there ;), keep that one quiet please...) and for that I am proud of myself!

All in all, today has been a good day!

P.S sorry in the lack of photos in this post, but I am not showing anyone the dresses I tried or which one was my favourite as its a complete secret until the day.